Its Late. My kids will be waking up in about 6 1/2 hours. So why am I up? We had a few rounds of lets see who can cry the most between the kids. Just a rough night I guess for the kids to get to sleep. I love my children but its truly a test of patience on nights like these. This always seems to happen when Greg is out of town for work. Its a reminder of how much I need to rely on the Lord and not myself.
I recently finished reading a book called Though Waters Roar by Lynn Austin. Very good book and also convicting. Even though its a fictional book its written by a christian author who not only is amazing with her history but with her scripture and love of the Lord. Tonight as I started to become overwhelmed I thought about something said in this book. "I think you have gotten everything turned around, dear. You're supposed to work with God, not for Him. Let Him change you first, and then He'll give you the strength and motivation you need for each task."
I always thought I am doing this for the Lord and yes I am but I cant do it without him. I need his help ever step of the way if I want my kids to know him someday.
I also went to Psalm 61
1 Hear my cry, O God;
listen to my prayer.
2 From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
I am so very blessed. My children need me to be close with the Lord. He will teach me patience and love. This gives me hope. I can do this. I can raise 2 kids and someday more. Thank you Lord for the opportunity to be a mother. I am grateful!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It's tough when your kids have a rough day/night, especially when you are doing it alone. You have a great perspective-it's so true that you have to be open to let God change you. That's easier said than done, isn't it? It's really a daily struggle. Here's hoping that you have a better day/night :-)
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