Strength in The Lord

Today I went to the doctor and I was diagnosed with Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. My first thought was this is just great! I have 2 kids at home. I hope it doesnt get worse to where I need surgery. Right now its not looking like it.

Of course it got me thinking after my doctor said sometime people get it because the way the Lord created them. At first I thought why would the Lord want me to have this? It hurts to use my hands! I do everything with my hands. What good could possibly come of this? Well who knows but I do know its in the Lord's hands. Funny huh? But how true is it? I always pray to the Lord to guide me and that my life is in His hands. Made me think of how much I try to do things on my own even though I tell the Lord my life is in His hands. I obviously cant rely on mine because they hurt. I need the Lord and his strength to get through the day. I need the Lord to guide me and use me. I cant rely on myself or others.

This always makes me think of when I do get to heaven nothing will hurt ever again. Its only while I am here in this body that I will have aches and pains but when The Lord welcomes me home my back wont hurt, my head wont hurt and my hands wont either. What an amazing gift of eternal life. Not only do we get to dwell with the Lord forever but we get to be pain free. Makes me that much stronger and more excited to serve the Lord.

Love for My Children

Recently my son went on a 10 day camping trip with his grandparents. Let me say this was the hardest 10 days ever. Being away from your child for that long is very hard. My heart literally ached when I thought about him. Not being able to be there when he gets hurt or when he does something for the first time is tough. It got to the point when I wanted to cry when people asked about him. Finally the day came where he came home to me. I anxiously waited. Looking out the window for my in-laws truck. Pacing back and forth. Cleaning. Anticipating our hug and the smile on his face. When they pulled up I saw him through the window and he was crying for me. I ran and just held him tight. Told him over and over I loved him and how much I missed him. My heart was complete again. Even though we have our rough days, I wouldnt trade it for anything. I would rather have all rough days with him by my side then have him not there at all.

And of course this got me thinking. I think the Lord loves us like this. Waiting anxiously for us to spend time with Him everyday. Waiting for the embrace. Ready to express His love for us through His word or through prayer. I think he would rather have those rough days with us than none at all. He wants us to cry out to him. Depend on Him and believe His promises. He will never forsake us. He will ALWAYS love us no matter what. He is there to help us grow closer to Him.

I love when the Lord shows me things through situations in my own life. I love when he convicts my heart and reminds me who my Savior is. Thank you Lord.